Reflecting back on it, I’m thinking the first hint of a generation gap between me and people some years younger occurred on December 8th, 1980, when I was nosing around the northern border of Jordan looking for signs of increased tension with Syria. I was with a camera crew and producer and we’d been told the Jordanians had dug a lot of main battle tanks into the desert and might open up just about any time against a comparable array of Syrian armour on the other side of the line.
The tanks were there all right, squat and menacing, only their upper plating and turrets in view and the air was thick with belligerence. We were careful, ducking into wadis and behind dunes, but couldn’t stay out of sight for long and pretty soon one of the Jordanian big guns swung around and looked as if it might be drawing a bead. The cameraman managed to squeeze off a quick picture or two and then we got right the hell out of there and went back to the hotel in Amman.
We walked into a room full of network staffers in apparent shock, and three production assistants were actually crying inconsolably. Right away, I worried that one of our folks, or somebody from one of the other networks had been wounded or maybe even killed, and of course I then thought well, if the shooting had started we’d somehow missed it and probably there goes my career. But it turned out the weeping and wailing was for John Lennon, who’d been murdered a couple of hours earlier in New York City.
I couldn’t understand it. There we were, facing the fairly lively prospect that within the next few hours or days a dangerous mideast war would start, and we’d be back north trying to keep out of the line of shellfire and most likely getting into it from time to time, and there was all this bawling going on about John Lennon. Beatle. Singer and songwriter. Guitar player. Entertainer. By his own conceited view bigger than Jesus Christ Himself. Now shot to death on the Upper East Side of New York. Not a pleasant story, it’s true, but the end of the world, almost? Please.
I remember when Louis Armstrong died in 1971. I was sad and mournful and pulled out my autographed photograph of him but there wasn’t any keening and sobbing in my room because I simply didn’t think his leaving us was tantamount to losing some kind of Almighty. But those production assistants obviously felt that way about Lennon and they cried for hours.
If I didn’t get it in 1980, I get it now, though. The generation gap. I’m clearly up there at the mature end of it which I suppose explains why I’ve been in a mood of considerable irritation about the crazed idolatry attending the 14 days between Michael Jackson’s death and his memorial service in Los Angeles. That tribute was on Tuesday, and nineteen television channels, including the major conventional and news networks, went wall to wall.
I felt the need for self-defence, so I decided to forego the TV coverage and instead sat in front of my computer for an hour….one hour only….watching wire service updates. There were 50, almost one every minute, and all slugged “Michael Jackson: Urgent.”
Generationally gapped fellow that I am, I’m sure you’ll forgive me for wondering why “Michael Jackson: Urgent” was followed by copy which proclaimed “a Los Angeles television station is reporting activity at the Forest Lawn Cemetery that appears to involve the family of Michael Jackson.” And then “a stage inside the Staples Center in Los Angeles is bathed in blue light. There’s a spray of yellow and orange flowers in front of the podium.”
Spare me. The guy was a singer and dancer, and maybe even exceptional as both. But I don’t think, as Berry Gordy of Motown declared at the memorial, that Michael Jackson was “the greatest entertainer the world has ever seen,” because when all is said and done he gave us at best a half dozen years of genuinely productive and innovative output. Lord forbid that little proviso should get in the way of worshipping false Gods, however, and so for the past two weeks the planet has been going nuts.
And then there are all the issues, the strange behaviour, the apparent addiction to powerful prescription drugs, the determined sequestering of his children, the appearance changes which soon led to the sobriquet “Wacko Jacko.” So to the degree I’m not inclined to join in bestowing the title ”greatest entertainer the world has ever seen” on Michael Jackson, I’ve also spent the last couple of weeks in parallel anger about this global fawning over a wingnut weirdo.
But comes the generation gap again, together with a concession I perhaps didn’t think this all the way through. I have to tell you during a spirited newsroom debate this morning, I was brought up short by a colleague whose views and abilities I respect, and who I now find grew up on Jackson’s music and dance. She was deeply troubled by his death, and while constructing no altars at which to kneel and pray, this woman did take my head off and said I should dismount from my pompous high horse.
“Lookit,” she said. “Who’s the greatest entertainer of all time? Beethoven? Maybe, although I prefer Chopin. Elvis? Maybe, but he was a bloated wreck when he died, all screwed up and a mess. Take your pick, but what I think about Michael Jackson is that he was a wonderful musician. I was brought up with his records and videos, the Jackson 5 and then all the music in the eighties. I also think it’s very sad that you’d have a guy like Michael Jackson so tortured by his life, his surroundings, his inner torment that he’d mutilate himself and maybe without even knowing it sort of start on a long journey to suicide. He was only 50. I think it’s just so sad.”
I hadn’t quite thought of it that way. I should have, because it is sad that a man who to begin with endured all kinds of abuse at the hands of a brutish father, was denied a normal childhood, and at the end of it all was nothing more than a lonely and caged prisoner in his own Neverland freak show, should not have been allowed to depart with dignity, and in peace.
That’s what my colleague found so disturbing, but then again, she did say ”take your pick,” so I’ll stay with Louis Armstrong, although I know that puts the words “generation gap” into boldface and capital letters.
Okay. Maybe I’ll go out and get that T-shirt with Old Fart printed across the chest. I still think the Michael Jackson memorial was overdone, but I kind of see now my reaction was, too.